Thursday, September 27, 2007 . 8:07 PM
It been quite sometime i never blog.. abit lazy through!Last week been doing afew badminton coaching at Tao Nao Primary school and Sengkang CC private training.
This is one of my Fav student at Tao Nao Primary , simply she is so CUTE!!!
It my 1st time coaching her.. i still remember the way she ask me, Coach: We be doing what today? (Doing what type of training) Her cuteness just make my day! =)
Also had my English placement test last week! Was told if we fail the test, we might need to take their foundation course which cost $2000 !! I was like "HUH" !!! Furthermore i only got 50% confidence of the test! Die lor! Nevertheless i cant do anything if i fail.. have to choose MDIS or PSB. It simply too exp to pay the $2k just for the foundation course.
25/09/07
Went Out with Tiffany on Tuesday! haha Damn long nv see her! Still so Short and cheerful =X ...
Pic taken at PS long John Silver
hahaha she wake up quite late so meet at 2.30pm at Cathay . We watched 1408! Personally i feel it quite a good movie! Got 3 and a half stars/ 5 stars. After the movie we walk around PS Chit chat abit and set off to SK CC for coaching , hope to see u again sista , hope next time can calvin got time to come out with us again! =)
26/09/07
Yesterday went out with my Bro and his gang of SIM student to sentosa! this my 2nd trip with them to sentosa! Mi Sun tan till i Zhao ta, so pain now!! Sob! Another place full of happy memory! For this trip each of us suppose to bring some food! Me and my bro bring Hotdog wrap with Prata with added thousand island sauce and cabbage! Some bring Pancake, Fishball, Otah Toast Bread and potato salad! Actually quite envy my bro got such interesting and outgoing group! Glad to have them as my friends! hehe
Play afew game like dodge ball, frebee and soccer.. so relaxing too!
Play afew game like dodge ball, frebee and soccer.. so relaxing too!
Left the beach at around 5 plus . 2 of the girls left 1st Which is Li Ru and Eline . Left 7 of us and we went vivo for dinner.
Guess what we swearing about... haha
(Actually wanted to throw same time but i slipped! )
The Four YanDao !!!
Left to Right(Andy, Justin,Gio and me)
The 3 Mei Niu and 1 yandao
Left to Right(HuiShi, Li Ru, Shuyi and De Hua)
Today
Went for the interview at Singapore indoor stadium at around 1 pm. Meet the supervisor, quite a interesting guy. I will be notify tomorrow if i am shortlisted , hopefully do get the job as i need the money and learn some skill to build up my path to become sista perm staff like sharon(Bro's GF).. haha i will never know right? Maybe after i grad from SIM i will go there work?
Soon afternoon i reach international plaza. Since i still have sometime before i meet my financial planner.. i go have my lunch and meet up with Huifen and Baolong.. had a short chat with them at their company. Then me and baolong went to coffeebean, i still remember baolong treat me dinner at marina there. I decided it my turn to treat him.. buy him a Caramel Latte! forgot to ask him nice anot haha.. anyway chat from games to her .. He really do know how i feel , and how i see thing, feel so good, so nice coze most pple wont get it right unless i explain wat i really mean! There still got alot of uncertainties in me , anyway it wont change wat had happened.! Ask him alot of his view, he also told me about his r/s ! It good to know they are going Strong! I feel they are really compatible.If someone ask me , I will still admit i miss her alot...
Time to meet my planner le, Bao long walk me to IPP .
Reach there at around 4.30pm and he ask me what kind of policy i looking for and he gave me afew option.. told him i would like ILP(Investment Link Policy) and he choose the best in the market. The policy is from Manulife if i am not wrong! We chat alot of staff but me lazy to type le, wanted to make this short. This policy is protection cum investment. It cover Perm Disability and critcal illness and at the same time invest in a diversify way. My return most likely be 5%-9%.
Personally i hope my friend will take up this. cause it really benficial! So in order to support my monthly expense and insurence. Got to work! haha. For my future, have to start early!That all for this 2 week folk! =)
Personally i hope my friend will take up this. cause it really benficial! So in order to support my monthly expense and insurence. Got to work! haha. For my future, have to start early!That all for this 2 week folk! =)
Monday, September 17, 2007 . 3:05 AM
Yesterday i went to Singapore expo with my Dad and Mum. Guess what, they went straight into the Travel Fair...Was kinda of feeling very sad.......Anyway my dad was looking for deal to go Taiwan. There were alot of pple and Big Agent like Chan Bro are having long Q... My dad hate to wait so we ended up at 5 star Tour..If everything went smoothly , my whole family will set off on 22nd of Nov for 7 days trip! Pay $1500 deposit and went for dinner outside the expo . Chop chop buy 3 chicken rice and Eat, was starving so badly..so glad i can go overboard and shan shan xin... Now must try to find some part time work ah... no$ liao.
Today went to Tao Nan Primary school... Was very impressed that the school have 8 Badminton Court! power man! Most of the kid are very very well behave. 2 Thumb up for the kids, very sensible and respectful to us. If i got kids next time , much try to register them at Tao Nan... After 4 hours of coaching, i am so tired, most of them are consider very good for their age!
Soon after, reach my Ah ma house for dinner!
Oh ya this is pretty nice song although it not a new ,i have uploaded it in my blog.. Enjoy!
歌手：林稷安/程于伦
遥望着你背影
有孤单太苍白
我多么想陪着你
走过人山人海
当天空变灰白
你的忧伤澎湃
我多么想走进你
紧锁的心海
我一直都在你身后等待
等你有一天回过头看我
我的笑送给你希望你快乐
你的难过都给我
关于你的一切我都
好好收藏着
等你有一天能感觉到我
就算我在你世界
渺小像一颗尘埃
我也会给你我所有的光和热
我鼓起勇气呐喊
你要听得见我
不许你再孤单
要你拥抱我给的温暖
EMJ
Saturday, September 15, 2007 . 4:09 PM
Wake up quite early today. Have to reach Sengkang CC for my badminton tournament by 9am.Did not really feel good today, feeling very tired and out of breath... but still i got into final in the single category surprisingly and i got champion in the King of the ring. Feel that i been quite lucky today! hehe Thank God.
Sponsor of the Tournament
Man double Final.
Sadly i did not know much people there. So was all alone and no one take photo of me smashing into final haha. Anyway my score in the final was quite bad. Lost to the defending champion by 8-21, 13-21. Sianz kana trash... =/
Today is my lucky day still.. Why? ahah 1 of the racket is won by lucky draw. 2ND prize!
Look at the stuff i got! 3 Racket, badminton string , 2 Tube of shuttlecock, 1 Shirt, 1 Small bag and 1 XXL badminton bag. All quality not bad one. Just that i got 3 same type of racket , abit sianz half...lol! Went to have my lunch at KFC at compress point! Heard my dad talking about going holiday to Taiwan!! haha duno he serious anot!
Wednesday, September 12, 2007 . 12:48 AM
Tomorrow i will be applying for Diploma in Management Studies for Jan intake. Hopefully i can enroll without taking the English Test. If everything was smooth i shall move on to my next step of my life. I am 22 years old . I must grow more in mentally and phyicially. Furthermore my Dad have pass me quite a big sum of my money!Must learn to manage, plan and save.But truthfully i feel quite stress , i am afraid i am not up to it, there simply too much temptation out there, have not been touching textbook for years , and further more i am now on my own liao.
But i know this part of growing up and becoming stronger!
请多多指教 hehe
Sunday, September 9, 2007 . 10:06 PM
Wake up pretty early today. My cousin ask me to join them on liberating animal . And today animal is from the Sea. It Crabs. There got about 300+ to be release.The meeting place namely Amitabha Buddhist Centre is located at 44 Lorong 25A Geylang Singapore 388244
It a 7 story high building. Went in and listen to about an hr of prayer and soon we were on our way to Changi Beach.
It quite meaningful to release crab, you will feel that u had done a big flavour saving them from becoming black pepper crab, chilli crab and so on... also abit scare of their craw! Very Very powerful . Armed with scissor we cut lose their string and free them. Most of the believer will pray after release each crab. I myself wish they have a better life and all the best.
After then make went to my cousin house. Another "J" place of memory. Pretty good memory ! haha The place is where we 1st played our tennis! Finally dinner at my ah ma house. That my tiring day.
Saturday, September 8, 2007 . 2:37 AM
This song is recommended by Hf 1 year ago.. I din really give much attention although is a nice song to listen to, i did not notice much on the meaning of the song...I am staying up this late just listening to this song!I believe even through sometime you might not memorize the lyrics but by listening to it once. It will be in somepart of your brain.Anyway this song is like singing my feeling out..
洗牌:
回忆当初我们的好与坏
才发现其实快乐大于悲哀
从过去一路走来我却学不会慷慨
去面对这场得来不易的爱
我们都曾等待下一张牌
让落败的爱能扳的回来
却只组合成伤害希望被失望破坏
眼看错已离手收不回来
谁能把悲伤从新洗牌
谁能说这不是种安排
长久以来 oh 爱情是种意外
让我输了你曾为我存的爱so beautiful
oh~~
我们都曾等待下一张牌
让落败的爱能扳的回来
却只组合成伤害希望被失望破坏
眼看错已离手收不回来
谁能把悲伤从新洗牌
谁能说这不是种安排
长久以来 oh 爱情是种意外
让我输了你曾为我存的爱 my baby
我怎么能释怀最后的未来
最后一手牌还紧握着悲哀
谁能把悲伤从新洗牌
谁能说这部是种安排
长久以来 oh 爱情是种意外
让我输了你曾为我存的爱 so beautiful
Thursday, September 6, 2007 . 8:02 PM
Today meet Sharon my future Dao Sao for movie, was meeting her to watch 11.30am Ratatouille.. But The Q is so long...! who would knew that a normal Thursday morning have so many people watching movie. Anyway we rush to Engwah .. luckily still have 1145am slot..Good Movie, but somehow i cant concentrate and enjoy the movie, finish movie then i realise i should call her and tell her directly i am sorry instead of just sms. So glad she acknowledge.
I really do miss her alot!
Anyway, Sharon went to Expo for her work and i went for lunch alone at TM (Long john)
TM was quite a frequent place for me and her. Almost everywhere got her shadow..
Went straight home after that. Duno what to do tomorrow since eric got something on.. Anyone free to go out with me?
Here that something that cheer me up for awhile...
Wednesday, September 5, 2007 . 11:43 PM
After Chatting with so many people , i now start to have a clear image! Especially today.. the fog in my heart is clearing up...also have a good walk with huifen today with 2 cute dog! One is Girl girl and the other is Cody. Me and huifen having some difficultly holding on to them! They are really strong.. quite a long walk, about 2 hr! We also chat about my stuff and her stuff.. i feel much calmer ...seeing the dog having fun really clear up part of my head. The way they get the attention of adult and children..Girl Girl abit siao siao keep on biting Cody , and do some backstroke on the grass..so funny! Soon after back to huifen void-deck have a quick puff , i was all the while thinking abt my problem. Rethinking what all my friend had said to me.. soon after saw huifen mum pass by ,then something happen.. another owner pet dog approach us! Cody and Girl Girl went wild!! All 3 dog went wild!! suddenly duno how the hell cody manage to get off the dog chain and ran toward the dog! I was totally caught off guard as i tot the chain is suppose to secure! I ran full speed toward Cody , Cody made a turn and he was slowing down as it was quite slippery i practically dive toward Cody i held him. Phew...close call! A dog can run how fast i suppose u all know..! 
Picture of me and Cody after Me held him in custody.
If u are reading this, i want to say i am typing this in a calm and orderly mind.
It been high and low for me and u this months. I believe u have suffered wat i had suffer. It not easy for you!Especially i am such a slow thinker and cant think straight when i am panic, angry and worried. I apologize if i put you in such a position. Previously i typed that i hate u, that when i have a screwed mind.
I hope we are still friend. and i will wait for you till you grad. You have my words =)
Takecare and Miss you
Erik Thank to all that willing to spend their precious time for me! When they can do something more useful. Eric, Huifen, my Bro, Weixing , Sharon and maybe Yansong , Wendy , Kenny and Chee Weng.
Human:
Seem u are someone close to her, u should know i am not a street smart guy. I always say the wrong thing using the wrong words at the wrong time. You can say i am very unlucky, I am still regretting , and i fear of 'regret' so much now. And there alot of thing my mind still cant give a good answer to my heart. For example if i wrote : I think she is feeling very sad and hurt.(why dun she just give me a 2nd chance? when our reason for breaking of is so unbelievable, and even have a solution to it , further more i am so confident that it can work up)
It contradict so much...or u do have answer to the question in my heart?
Tuesday, September 4, 2007 . 11:47 PM
Today Went to comp point for a walk, still as busy! There a care bear show! Dun really know what to do for the whole afternoon.. went arcade for awhile, see pple walk around , doing their stuff! Then when going to B1, saw delifrance restaurant and recall back how me and her had our dinner there, she had steak and i order chicken. I eat till almost want to vomit! after that see her home.. all the sweet moment...I need time to get over it.. Jess, we can be friend still i hope! My mind will convince my heart one day to get over it.. i promise!
Tomorrow be meeting mei if weather is good. So glad there someone can pei me! Even a dog is good companion for me.
Thursday treat my dao sao movie.
Hope friday eric is free to pei me.
Sat Weixing will pei me play badminton in the morning.. follow i duno liao , maybe ask cheeweng pei me
All i can say is i dun want to be alone...
歌手:刘德华 练习
如果留下多一秒钟可以减少明天想你的痛我会愿意放下所有交换任何一丝丝可能的占有幸福只剩一杯沙漏眼睁睁看着一幕幕甜蜜不会再有原来平凡无奇的拥有到现在竟像是无助的奢求我已开始练习开始慢慢着急着急这世界没有你已经和眼泪说好不哭泣但倒数计时的爱该怎么继续我天天练习天天都会熟悉在没有你的城市里试着删除每个两人世界里那些曾经共同拥有的一切美好和回忆爱是一万公顷的森林迷了路的却是我和你不是说好一起闯出去怎能剩我一人回去 Today dream of her again...dream she forgive me le! haiz.. how i wish i dun wake up.
Just update my Blog. Thank hf for guidance on the Cbox and music player. My Blog now look more presentable.
1st Song: Fan Yi Chen_-_ Chu Chu Ci Zi Wai : Dedicate to Jessica
2nd : Fan Yi Chen_-_算了 : Dedicate to Myself
3rd :邓丽欣 方力申_-_十分．爱 : Dedicate to me and her
4th :B.A.D_-_Wo De Cuo : Dedicate to her
5th :Westlife_-_What makes a man : Dedicate to her
6th :Zhang Zhi Chen Ling Chen San Dian Zhong: Dedicate to her
7th :Jay Zhou_-_Hui dao Guo Qu:Dedicate to her
8th:Jay Zhou_-_Jie Kou:Dedicate to her
I miss her
11:37am
Monday, September 3, 2007 . 7:22 PM
It really diffcult for me to cope without her.. like hf said, Life is unfair even if you really derserve a 2nd chance! She really do hurt me alot alot.. it like having a knife stuck for 2 week that i ownself poke during her exam and have it twisted deeper and wider by her...after her exam.God know when it will take how long to heal such a wound.
My world seem to change, was hoping to distract myself by doing thing... but soon after her name appear all over in my mind! Huifen, can we have a smoking session again soon? haha
Who can fix my broken heart?
7:28pm Today mark the confirmation on the end of Erik and Jess, Jessica refuse to give me a chance even proper reason, promise, solution and numouous attempt asking to give me a chance.
I feel so cheated , so unfair.
Was going to wait for her to come home , i sit down at her void deck from 4pm+ onward till it rain, was cold but i just sit there feeling the rain on me. Soon after huifen called , she is correct , wat can i say when i see her.. all i can say is the Chiam i got from Si Ma lu, Since she have decided i cant do anything.. Alhought my mind say it over, my heart tell me to hate her.. because all i had done was not given a 2nd chance. I have not done anything seriously wrong . And because i say the wrong thing at the wrong time at a wrong state of mind . i was punished without a 2nd chance.. I dun think anyone can give in just like this.! To me she really are heartless...
I dun like to hate pple.. Please let mi have time to think and get this over.. i duno when, days,months maybe years.. I hope we still friend.
Thank again huifen for accompany me, it the 1st time i smoke so many cig and drink finish 1 500ml beer.
Life sux, i have lost my direction now.